April 13, 2005 Zzz. Add me then ask me who I am. I got add you meh? =/ Nevermind fine.
I withdrew from Nursing. Byebye $50. Oh yea. $30 for checkup too. Yes I feel the heartache for it too. I like Nursing but I love myself more. Was somehow close to tears when my mum asked for the withdrawal form.
It's already so hard trying to buy things. I know the pay will gradually rise for Nursing. But it's the second time I'm unhappy with it I don't think I can give it a third chance. If I'm unhappy with it, how can I give my best? How can I expect to score better compared to not being too happy in the course? I'm very sorry to waste close to $100.
I'm still stuck on the mentality that Accountants get more pay than Nurses. That is if I manage to secure a job.
Was upset by my mum who was telling me something like I was trying to rebel her when I told her I still wanted to work in the hospital if I'm an accountant. I've been wanting that since I don't know when. I don't make rash decisions like that just to rebel her. Dohh.
Maybe I shouldn't have withdrew from it. I don't know. I just can't think now. This is so confusing. What if I don't get a job in accounting? What if there happens to be some buisness fall or crisis or whatever? What if my pay ends up the same? What if Nursing's pay rise? What if I don't like Accounting? What if I don't pass Accounting? My mind is running with "what if-s" now. I'm really lost.
I don't know if the move I made was smart or not. If I don't like Accounting I could quit after 1year and go to Nursing. But that'd mean I'm one year back. Bahh.